captain kirk

looking at stepping off again,
no choice
as long as there is still one question
unanswered,
hovering,
i have to go.

what else is there?
where else?
who else is out there.

i boldly go where many have gone.
but i have not.

farmer

over the years
i've watched them meet
marry
even start families
and get going on buying houses
stocks
and come up with some semblance of the real deal.

all the time i assumed that pursuing the real
automatically precluded chasing the dream.

the dreams can only take root in the soil
of what you realize.
the soil takes time.
the dreams take tending.

unless your dream is running.
sounds like a nightmare in a way.

my shoes aren't flying off every 5 seconds.

that's nice.

another win

lifer.

depravity is a lifetime in the making.
you can't just do it in a weekend,
though there are many that want to pretend...

it is an investment that will cost you everything
a currency of choices.
they are the hard ones
the painful ones
the suffering ones.

at the end though,
you are left with a busstop
and fast food
surrounded by tenderloin junkies
and high school thugs.
the worst kind.
and everyone knows you are king....