so you keep reaching
striving
driving
for these sinking spiders
just out the tips of fingers
just beyond the discernible scope
of the headlamps
drive faster
faster
reach further
further
go longer
longer
but somehow,
at the end
of the journey
the war
the whole shitstorm of it
it isn't what you thought
and neither are you.
some things can't be undone.
and that's ok.